I'm not that brave... There's still a lot I'm really scared of, and—I keep wanting to help and be able to do something, but everything here is so beyond me, and that terrifies me. And I feel like... I spend so much time needing to be picked up by others, instead of being able to handle it like everybody else. Honestly, I kind of want to run away from all of this.
[ . . . okay, well. he was shy about it before but he will just slowly scoot over. she can pull away whenever she wants, but he is going to try to gather her in his arms for a hug. ]
... I don't think a brave person stops feeling afraid. I think the fact that you're still here, one way or another, trying your best for the people around you is what you do despite the fear. And... that is the definition of courage.
[ She doesn't resist, at least; like every time before, Koharu easily leans into the hug. ]
Mm... maybe.
[ Koharu still feels doubtful; would anyone back home ever call her courageous? She doubts it. ]
But I think you're a lot braver than I could ever be. Because... [ She trails off, then breathes out deeply again. ] If— if I had known about Firefly, I don't think I could've even said anything, knowing what everyone was planning to do.
I've had to stop a friend before, like that. It's how I ended up here, because I lost my life in the process at the same time. I guess... it's not something I wish anyone ever had experience with.
But... because I've done it before, I think that's why I could do it again, here. To try to save her and... protect who I could. Not that it made me love her any less, but I had other people I needed to look out for, too.
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I'm not that brave... There's still a lot I'm really scared of, and—I keep wanting to help and be able to do something, but everything here is so beyond me, and that terrifies me. And I feel like... I spend so much time needing to be picked up by others, instead of being able to handle it like everybody else. Honestly, I kind of want to run away from all of this.
I don't think that's what a brave person does.
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... I don't think a brave person stops feeling afraid. I think the fact that you're still here, one way or another, trying your best for the people around you is what you do despite the fear. And... that is the definition of courage.
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Mm... maybe.
[ Koharu still feels doubtful; would anyone back home ever call her courageous? She doubts it. ]
But I think you're a lot braver than I could ever be. Because... [ She trails off, then breathes out deeply again. ] If— if I had known about Firefly, I don't think I could've even said anything, knowing what everyone was planning to do.
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I've had to stop a friend before, like that. It's how I ended up here, because I lost my life in the process at the same time. I guess... it's not something I wish anyone ever had experience with.
But... because I've done it before, I think that's why I could do it again, here. To try to save her and... protect who I could. Not that it made me love her any less, but I had other people I needed to look out for, too.
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That's why I'm not scared or angry with you. But I am at whoever is doing this to us when we—none of us ever did anything.
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... I feel the same. I don't think I can forgive whatever is doing this.
Every decision that we have to make here is just... difficult.
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